Rise up and come away with me. Live in the mystery, with no full understanding of what I am doing in your life. Faith will provide the insight you need, to know where I am taking you and what I am doing deep in your soul…

Be like my faithful one Moses, who turned aside to gaze on the fire of my presence. I will draw you into secrets where dancing flames bring revelation and wisdom to your soul. Lean in to my presence, and I will pour out the fragrance of divine love. Come closer, and you will taste the mystery of our sweet union. See beyond the veil. Forsake the confines of your understanding, and embrace the mystery of life with me. ~ I Hear His Whisper 

I read this devotional as I was flying back from our AMAZING retreat in Africa (see our lovely group in the photos above ⬆️). Long haul flights provide plenty of time for reflection. We truly “embraced the mystery of life” in so many ways on this adventure of a lifetime…visiting 5 countries, 9 hotels/lodges, witnessing gorgeous scenery, cultures, wild weather and wildlife (the big 5)! We bonded as a group through shared experiences, laughter, long drives through Africa, sensational safaris, and forever friendships and memories imprinted in our hearts.❤️ 

And, to share something a bit more vulnerable that was a true joy moment for me…  

On one of our extended drives through Namibia, I was sitting in the back of the safari vehicle (as one who does not get car sick) gazing out the window, when sadness came over me as I flash backed to a traumatic memory of being a 9-year old girl on a bus turn around trip from Yuma, Arizona to the San Diego Zoo. I believe my mom and step-dad sent me on this excursion to get me out of our travel trailer home during my school spring break. I remember feeling so lonely as I did not know any other children on the city sponsored trip, and did not bring snacks or a lunch as was suggested (I ate some of a leader’s lunch). Upon returning from the zoo and the trip late that night, my mom was not there to pick me up. This happened many times at school and elsewhere as she struggled with addiction…

Why was I remembering this now, on such an amazing trip of a lifetime (que wild animal correlation)?!

Triggers often have no rhyme or reason or optimal timing. But, I have learned to allow the emotions to surface, to feel all the feels of unmet needs and expectations, and with a present awareness, calm nervous system, and God’s supernatural love and grace, invite parts of me into the wholeness and fullness of who I am today. I am safe. I am not alone. I am loved. I am living life fully on purpose in this moment. I embraced my 9-year old self who was lonely, sad, and disappointed. I held her and met a need that had not been previously voiced.

This became a beautiful joy moment of reclaiming a tender part of me that had been suppressed in the depths of my being. 

I will draw you into secrets where dancing flames bring revelation and wisdom to your soul. Lean in to my presence, and I will pour out the fragrance of divine love. Come closer, and you will taste the mystery of our sweet union.

If we are open and aware of our inner workings, and allow the presence of God to reveal and heal areas of hurt and tenderness, it becomes such a gentle, beautiful process.

Who knew I would experience this as I was co-leading a retreat? God did. He provided the ideal set of circumstances and the divine timing for me to reclaim this childhood part of me into the wholeness of who I am right now.

Priceless.

Forsake the confines of your understanding, and embrace the mystery of life with me.

“God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways—the path that brings me back to you.” ~ Psalm 139: 23-24 TPT

Amen. 🙏🏻

Embrace the mystery, 

Heather